Speak, your servant is listening

i the lord of sea and sky
i have heard my people cry
all who dwell in dark and sin
my hand will save

here i am lord, is it i lord?
i have heard you calling in the night
i will go lord, where you lead me
i will hold your people in my heart

i who make the stars at night
i will make their darkness bright
who will bear my light to them
whom shall i send

here i am lord, is it i lord?
i have herad you calling in the night
i will go lord, where you lead me
i will hold your people in my heart

today's mass was really beautiful, it was like God's calming presence was there and like sitting in church was just so soothing. i really miss p&w!

the last 2 days, i feel that God has been telling me the same message over and over again. it has something to do with sin though, ha i can't find the scripture. haha oh wells but it has something to do with not succumbing to sin in order to assimilate into society. instead of being a slave to sin, be God's slave. and that links to here i am lord. i feel God is trying to ask me to do something but i don't know what and most important of all i don't feel ready, i don't feel like i'm in a position to preach the word of God. He says to empty myself so that he may fill me. I kinda feel empty at the moment but God's promise is what i hope in. I really do hope that God may fill me. Oh boy look out for tomorrow. may God's spirit be in the waiting wings for i am in great need of strength. I really want to be ready for God before pre-confi camp, because i don't want to miss this opportunity. I don't know when my next will be and i feel that i need it. God says he will be there, but will i be ready in time?

It's like after being away from God for so long, it's harder to achieve that level of spirituality again. Father lord, speak! Your servant is listening.