The Lord Is Near

As Pre-confi retreat draws near, i read through my 'spiritual' journal. Reflecting on the countless times God was present in my life. However, the message i took home today was that the Lord is Near and reinforced by Mark, God is next to me (at least something along that line) and i still have no idea what God is trying to say to me. I don't understand which part of my prayer he's answering. But i truly feel that God is BACK in my life, i feel my cup being filled gradually by God's overwhelming love for me. When i entered into the adoration room i said my prayer silently with such ease that i have not done before and it has been a while since i was that deep in prayer. I truly praise and thank God for the wonderful blessing he has bestowed upon me. Though small but meaningful. The other thing i took home today with me that despite all my flaws and shortcomings, i realise that God never dwells upon them, he always seems to be encouraging me along, giving me advice that does not emphasise on my mistakes. I am amazed at God's grace because despite all the sins i've committed he still deems me worthy enough to hear his words through his instruments. It has been multiple times that i've heard God's word from the mouth of others and i feel utmost blessed and yes, i do admit that at times i wish i could just hear it directly from him. But what i receive is what counts and not how i receive it =).
Tuesday's gospel read about the mustard seed and the yeast. About how the mustard seed, although it may be the smallest seed but it'll grow into the biggest tree and having the capacity to accomodate the birds and other animals. And the yeast was essential in a allowing the bread to rise to it's full potential. I pray that i may in turn be that mustard seed to do my part in the kingdom of God. To bring other's closer to God and always having others bring me closer. To allow them to experience God's love. I do sometimes doubt my intentions cause sometimes it's about making a difference. It is in our innate human nature that we naturally want to do something that impacts others, something that will never be forgotten and something that will be the turning point for others. The other reason would be that because God's love and mercy is so wonderful that i feel like sharing it with others.
"You are with me, You are with me, You are with me", "The Lord is Near", "I am coming", "The Lord is beside you". Father, lord open my heart and mind to be able to discern your message and may i be able to internalise the full being of your message. I pray that you will empower the sec 3s confirmants to be prepared spiritually to experience the fullness of the grace of the holy spirit, that we may be ever so touched my the grace of our almighty lord.