"At one time, most of my friends could hear the bell, but as years passed, it fell silent for all of them. Even Sarah found one Christmas that she could no longer hear its sweet sound. Though I've grown old, the bell still rings for me, as it does for all who truly believe."



"You're the meaning in my life, you're the inspiration, you bring feeling into my life, you're the inspiration"



"She said she'll run, Until her feet don't touch the ground"

you know that line is so inspirational!

it made me wanna run 2.4

so a big thank you to mayday parade

i love mayday parade =D

MARYANNE!

haha second dedication post

i love maryanne!
she let me have her jacket during mass
although she was cold too
love ya and your GAP jacket
which is super nice and comfy and cushy and
cool and awesome
=D

ANNETTE!

My long overdued dedication post(by one day)

Awesome
Nuts about JONAS
Nice
Enthusiastic about JONAS
Totally crazy over JONAS
Terrific
Eager*

* varies according to the situation

hey babe
i love you (=
but then you already know that
haha i love having you around
so thanks so being a great pal
and for sticking around
i didn't make this post colourful=D
"it's so colourful...... i hate it"

i thought it was gonna be easy
turns out its harder than i thought
it needs more than a few hours of work
but i just can't connect with their story
or to them, for that matter
totally can't find a single Saint that i connect with
oh well
the lord knows best
so let him work in his own way
(=
hope you guys have more luck than i do

How to choose your confirmation name

Hey everyone!
i was searching around and i found this
so those picking your confirmation names, here's a good headstart
hope it helps =D

Step1: Find a list of canonized saints in the Roman Catholic Church by reading a book or doing online research. Saints are people who have lived holy lives and are now in heaven as members of the Church Triumphant. Their life stories provide examples for others on how to overcome spiritual obstacles on Earth.

Step2: Read about male saints if you're male, and female saints if you're female. Generally speaking, you'll want to choose a name that matches your gender.

Step3: Pray to the Holy Spirit, and ask Him for help in finding a saint whose life you'd like to imitate. This saint will be bonded with you spiritually, and in essence becomes your heavenly patron who intercedes for you before God.

Step4: Narrow your selection to two saints. One of them will be your new Confirmation name. Think about the specific virtues those saints exhibited, such as patience, perfection, diligence, humility, mortification, meekness, obedience, prayer, charity or simplicity. Find a virtue that connects with you.

Step5: Consider the one or two special stories told about those saints on your "short" list to help you find a spiritual connection. For example, St. Maximilian Kobe gave up his life for another person's life in a German concentration camp during World War II, and so showed the virtue of selflessness. St. Francis, a spiritual leader who founded a religious order, led a simple life of poverty and greatly loved animals.

Step6: Take your list of two saints to a family member or friend who is a practicing Catholic. Talk about the saints' lives with that person, and discuss what attracts you spiritually to these holy people.

Step7: Select your Confirmation name, and inform your family and friends. Get used to it by saying it over and over again in your mind. Practice writing it as part of your full name.

Step8: Before you are confirmed, pray to the saint whose name you will be using as your Confirmation name. Ask this saint to intercede for you, to help you make the right moral choices, and overall to be a powerful spiritual guide the rest of your life.

Step9: Buy pictures, holy cards, statues and books associated with your Confirmation's namesake. These visual reminders of your saint will help you reflect upon his or her unique virtues.

Tips & Warnings
Pick a name at least a few weeks before you receive the sacrament of Confirmation. Give yourself plenty of time to do research about saints.
Don't give in to any pressure from family or friends to choose a specific Confirmation name. Be sure to listen to any strong objections to the name you pick. However, in the end this new name should be one you alone like, and will be happy to live with the rest of your life.


helpful linkys
American Catholic lists names of patron saints.
Find saint's names for girls and for boys.
Catholic.org gives names and information about patron saints.

i got it from the link below
http://www.ehow.com/how_2154367_choose-confirmation-name.html
so if you need more info it's there

i know that you want me to want you, i want to

i can live without you
but without i'll be miserable at best

because these words were never easier to say

and we both go down together
we'd stay there together
just trying to get up
and i'm sorry that this wasn't easy

I thought i could live in your arms
and spend every moment i had with you
Stay up all night with the stars
confess all the faith i had in you

Just be here now against me.
You know the words so sing along for me baby.

Cause i will always remember you as you are right now to me

its just another night,
another dream wasted on you

and we both go down together
and stay there together
just trying to get up

i love mayday parade!!!!
hehe
=D they rock!

The rules are simple:
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn't make sense!

How are you feeling today?
Bubbly (yeah, right, so off)
Will you get far in life?
Ladies' Choice
How do your friends see you?
Leave Out All The Rest
Will you get married?
When It Was Me (sounds like a no)
What's the story of your life like?
Flavor Of The Week (=O i'm so sad)
What's secondary school life like?
Summer Nights
How can you get ahead in life?
That's What You Get
How do you feel about your friends?
Fame
Describe them.
Better Man
What's tomorrow gonna be like?
Damaged (uh oh)
What's in store for the weekend?
Life is A Highway
Describe yourself.
Get'cha Head In The Game
Decribe your parents.
Cooties (HAHAHAHAHAHA)
How's your life going?
Who Said
What song will they play at your funeral?
Why Can't We Be Friends
How does the world see you?
Running Out Of Time
Will you have a happy life?
Have A Nice Day
What do your friends really think of you?
Say Goodbye :(
Do people secretly lust after you?
In The Dark Of The Night
How do I make myself happy?
One In A Million
What should you do with your life?
Between You and Me
Will you have children?
Dirty Little Secret (hahahaha)
annette!!! do this with only using your jonas songs!!

no words can convey what i'm feeling
won't bother blogging
but i already am
ironic
oh well you can check out my work of art at the following links:
http://artpad.art.com/gallery/?kaiiy918qhs0
http://artpad.art.com/gallery/?kaijhfxekto
http://artpad.art.com/gallery/?kaik481drm2k
http://artpad.art.com/gallery/?kaiqu08wk78
http://artpad.art.com/gallery/?kaitbvns92s
numb numb numb-ity numb

If i were a boy?

would you date me if i were a boy???
my recent survey

maryanne: yes
clarissa: yes
nut: i wouldn't
liane: maybe, must have muscles
alex: yes
annette: yes, but i have to be ok with jonas and have to be hot
angeline: yes
rachel: yes
regina: no, cause she can't imagine me as a guy
natalie: yes
cherie: yes
kelly: no, my personality would me too weird for a guy =D

hehe
if i were a boy i'll pass
look at the number who WILL date me!!
haha i'll be a favourite
=D hahahahahha

i'm sick and tired of this whole charade
i'm pissed of the lack of contact
i'm worried for the dollar signs
i'm fed up with guessing
i'm tired of being cooped up

now i feel ungrateful
i know that God loves me
i know that i'm exceptionally lucky
then why can't i be happy

this is ridiculous
is fine really what you're feeling
cause i'm worried seriously
ok maybe it's just that i'm overthinking

am i?
are my feelings justified?
cause i seriously don't think so
and i can't help but feel so

i'm trading my sorrows!

atyou are holy holy holy
i want to see you
holy holy holy
open the eyes of of my heart

haha been listening to P&W songs ever since i came back from camp
haha i just prefer P&W songs i still like the other songs but haha just wanna listen to P&W songs haha =D

i've figured that the song i'm trading my sorrows makes hell lot of sense

i'm trading my sorrows
i'm trading my shame
i'm laying them down for the joy of the lord
i'm trading my sickness
i'm trading my pain
i'm laying them down for the joy of the lord

we say yes lord yes lord yes yes lord
yes lord yes lord yes yes lord
yes lord yes lord yes yes lord
amen.

it really does haha cause if you lift up everything to the lord he'll take care of everything and haha there's nothing to worry about!!! cause you know he's handling it haha omg i feel so enlightened haha. hahahhaa ok i'm officially high, a mild spritual high, still wanna obtain maximum spritual high cause that feeling was AWESOME! haha
PRAISE THE LORD
GOD is good
all the time =D

oh and the piano piece played before as it is heaven start is stuck in my head
it's really soothing and calming=D

a story that is worth reading =D

In that place between wakefulness and dreams, I found myself in the room. There were no distinguishing features except for the one wall covered with small index card files. They were like the ones in libraries that list titles by author or subject in alphabetical order. But these files, which stretched from floor to ceiling and seemingly endless in either direction, had very different headings. As I drew near the wall of files, the first to catch my attention was one that read 'Girls I have liked.' I opened it and began flipping through the cards. I quickly shut it, shocked to realize that I recognized the names written on each one. And then without being told, I knew exactly where I was.
This lifeless room with its small files was a crude catalog system for my life. Here were written the actions of my every moment, big and small, in a detail my memory couldn't match. A sense of wonder and curiosity, coupled with horror, stirred within me as I began randomly opening files and exploring their content. Some brought joy and sweet memories; others a sense of shame and regret so intense that I would look over my shoulder to see if anyone was watching.
A file named 'Friends' was next to one marked 'Friends I have betrayed.' The titles ranged from the mundane to the outright weird 'Books I Have Read,' 'Lies I Have Told,' 'Comfort I have Given,' 'Jokes I Have Laughed at .' Some were almost hilarious in their exactness: 'Things I've yelled at my brothers.' Others I couldn't laugh at: 'Things I Have Done in My Anger', 'Things I Have Muttered Under My Breath at My Parents.' I never ceased to be surprised by the contents.
Often there were many more cards than I expected. Sometimes fewer than I hoped. I was overwhelmed by the sheer volume of the life I had lived. Could it be possible that I had the time in my years to fill each of these thousands or even millions of cards? But each card confirmed this truth. Each was written in my own handwriting. Each signed with my signature.
When I pulled out the file marked 'TV Shows I have watched', I realized the files grew to contain their contents. The cards were packed tightly, and yet after two or three yards, I hadn't found the end of the file. I shut it, shamed, not so much by the quality of shows but more by the vast time I knew that file represented.
When I came to a file marked 'Lustful Thoughts,' I felt a chill run through my body. I pulled the file out only an inch, not willing to test its size and drew out a card. I shuddered at its detailed content.
I felt sick to think that such a moment had been recorded. An almost animal rage broke on me. One thought dominated my mind: No one must ever see these cards! No one must ever see this room! I have to destroy them!' In insane frenzy I yanked the file out. Its size didn't matter now. I had to empty it and burn the cards. But as I took it at one end and began pounding it on the floor, I could not dislodge a single card. I became desperate and pulled out a card, only to find it as strong as steel when I tried to tear it.
Defeated and utterly helpless, I returned the file to its slot. Leaning my forehead against the wall, I let out a long, self-pitying sigh.
And then I saw it.. The title bore 'People I Have Shared the Gospel With.' The handle was brighter than those around it,seemed newer, almost unused. I pulled on its handle and a small box not more than three inches long fell into my hands. I could count the cards it contained on one hand.
And then the tears came. I began to weep. Sobs so deep that they hurt. They started in my stomach and shook through me. I fell on my knees and cried. I cried out of shame, from the overwhelming shame of it all. The rows of file shelves swirled in my tear-filled eyes. No one must ever, ever know of this room. I must lock it up and hide the key. But then as I pushed away the tears, I saw Him.
No, please not Him. Not here. Oh, anyone but Jesus. I watched helplessly as He began to open the files and read the cards. I couldn't bear to watch His response. And in the moments I could bring myself to look at His face, I saw a sorrow deeper than my own.
He seemed to intuitively go to the worst boxes. Why did He have to read every one? Finally He turned and looked at me from across the room. He looked at me with pity in His eyes. But this was a pity that didn't anger me. I dropped my head, covered my face with my hands and began to cry again. He walked over and put His arm around me. He could have said so many things. But He didn't say a word. He just cried with me.
Then He got up and walked back to the wall of files. Starting at one end of the room, He took out a file and, one by one, began to sign His name over mine on each card. 'No!' I shouted rushing to Him. All I could find to say was 'No, no,' as I pulled the card from Him. His name shouldn't be on these cards. But there it was, written in red so rich, so dark, so alive. The name of Jesus covered mine. It was written with His blood. He gently took the card back. He smiled a sad smile and began to sign the cards. I don't think I'll ever understand how He did it so quickly, but the next instant it seemed I heard Him close the last file and walk back to my side.
He placed His hand on my shoulder and said, 'It is finished.' I stood up, and He led me out of the room. There was no lock on its door. There were still cards to be written.
'I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.'-Phil. 4:13 'For God so loved the world that He gave His only son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life.' If you feel the same way forward it so the love of Jesus will touch their lives also My 'People I shared the gospel with' file just got bigger, how about yours?

I SING FOR JOY AT THE WORK OF YOUR HANDS!!!!

THE LORD IS GREAT!!!!
PRAISE THE LORD FOR HE IS GREAT!!!
i wanna thank the llamas and mers for the comfort they've given me when i was super sad and when i was super scared out of my wits haha. that was seriously for nothing.
haha
so LLAMAS I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!
MERS YOU GUYS ROCK MY SOCKS!!!!!! haha
GOD BLESS!!!
thanks to all those who have sent fuzzys!!!!
and a big thank you to the photographer!!! haha for letting us hog the camera
HAHAHHAAHHAHA
a big thank you to all the facils for journeying with us towards GOD
PRAISE THE LORD!!!!!

identity crisis

so camp ended today
i never wanted to leave, i really didn't
it was literally a retreat,
no handphones, internet access which meant that i didn't have any mode of contact
with anyone outside, which really left me in GOD's hands
and i want to go back to retreat, because the joy i've felt is unforgettable and it impossible to describe it in words but it was truly very peaceful and i felt really light, GOD was always there i just didn't know. i really want to continue smiling like nobody's business and go spiritually high but i just can't right now and i don't know why. who could deny that retreat was meaningful and it really helped each and everyone one of us has taken our own lesson, our own message from GOD. mine was that, we all know GOD made us in his image, which means that he left a part of himself in us. so because of that i see GOD in everyone of us. you can't deny it and the fact that in works through everyone to get to me. like he comforts me through my friends and i'm really grateful to him for giving me everyone i know, everyone counts cause they've all made an impact in my life one way or another. haha ok i feel peaceful again =D, i spiritually high again!!!!! hahaha PRAISE THE LORD!!!!!!!!

hey yal!!!
i got into 3/5!!!! hehe yipee
and i've got joan and weijia!!!!
though i'm really gonna miss:
clara and her joyous ambience
regina and her coolness and goofiness
annette and her jonas spasms and her laughter
rachel and her being rachel
MAN I'LL MISS YALL!!!!!!!!
i love yall,
you are the reason i go to school

i'll also miss 2/3!!!
man all the cool peeps, hahaha
there's lummie and her retardness
diandra and the way she makes the whole class laugh
clare and her effeciency
lynette, wait lynette and clare coming over hahaha
ah well
i'll still miss 2/3!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
<3>

today after training (where i got burnt and i got back my brace tan)
i went to clara's for our annual movie marathon, i don't care we are having one next year too
hehe we watched enchanted, mamma mia, camp rock (guess who was laughing and smiling the whole time?), what happens in vegas, we watched more last year
haha, ah well
nothing beats spending a whole day with your pals
i'll really miss you guys
i had pizza again!! haha

the tide is high but i'm holding on
i'm gonna be your number one
the tide is high but i'm holding on
i'm gonna be your number one
number one
my number one
number one

every girls wants you to be her man
but i'll wait right here to its my turn
i'm not the kind of girl
who gives up just like that
oh no

sometimes songs express what we want to convey better than anything else

When the world, leaves you feeling blue
You can count on me, I will be there for you
When it seems, all your hopes and dreams
Are a million miles away, I will re-assure you

Reach for the stars
Climb every mountain higher
Reach for the stars
Follow your hearts desire
Reach for the stars
And when that rainbow's shining over you
That's when your dreams will all come true

Holiday Blues

uber bored man!
very sian
i am like stoning half the time,
i think by the end of this holiday i'll become brain dead
there's nothing to do
i've like finished 5 books already
that's a lot in one week
woah, i read that much
haha just realised
my back's aching from yesterday's training
and i slipped off the bench and my shin got scraped
ouch!!
ended up with a really big bump
which i iced so it's pretty much normal except for the wound
then after training i went to my friend's house to celebrate deepavali
yeah it is really late to celebrate but what the hell la
slept at 1-ish
woke up at 8
pretty tired right now
went for mass
and mummy started talking to one of the parents so i left church around 10.30
then MARCUS came over!!!
he camwhored with me haha
he's seriously cute
haha he's growing his hair and he's like shaggy dog haha
i ate lunch at around 4-ish
wasn't hungry
haha by then my stomach was growling =D
then after that i stoned on my computer
and then went for novena
and then came home
HAD PIZZA!!!!
teehee
yeah but i wasn't that hungry cause i ate at four
then now i'm blogging
kay sorry for boring you =D
tata!