Pre-confi Camp

I went to camp with high expectations, with my spirituality somewhat intact. Being around group 8 was a very welcoming experience because our 'fellowship' began on 12th June and it's amazing how we've travelled so far in our spiritual journey together. Sharing sessions has been an ease, everyone's very open and it felt like we were one family. It was truly moving that everyone congregated together because of that one thing that we all yearned for, which was the presence of God in our lives.

P&W has always been an outlet in which i allow myself to surrender to God and allow him to envelope me with his overwhelming love. It is one form of prayer, worship that has always been easy for me. An enjoyable experience which has a very soothing effect on me. However, someone told me that when you sing praise and worship songs it is essential that you mean what you sing. So that was a new learning point which changed my experience and allowed me to go deeper in that form of worship.

During this retreat, i sincerely believe that i made a the best confession i have ever made and i truly praise and thank God for giving me the strength and courage to do so.

While preparing for praying over, Ms Tan talked to us about what was going to happen and i became afraid. But i soon found myself singing "Be not afraid, i come before you always,come follow me and i will give you rest" And i was very touched by this, this truly made me believe that i will rest in the spirit. I suddenly felt very peaceful and i placed my trust in the lord. During this time, there was heavy rain, thunder and lightning. It was as if God was calling to each and everyone of us, telling us "My child, i am here".

During praying over, i realise now that the holy spirit unlocked the hurt that wallowed deep down in my heart. Hurt and insecurities that i didn't know was dwelling in there. There were moments where i was very overwhelmed by God's love and moments where i felt so alone and so afraid. But in those moments, God never left me alone. When Olivia (my fellow groupmate) gave me a hug, i really felt like i was hugging God. It felt really really awesome =).

As for the rest of camp, it was filled with more tears than joy. Mass the next morning was indeed very reaffirming, God really seemed to be reassuring me. But i rushed off after mass to collect myself and great, awesome, merciful God yet again sent me someone else to comfort me.

When everyone went up on stage to testify your journey, it was very reaffirming especially, those that didn't experience anything tangible during praying over, like me. It was very moving to see that God had changed so many lives, inspired so many and worked wonders to everyone. It was really a pity that we didn't have enough time for everyone because i believe everyone has a story to tell and everyone wants to share it because when you receive God's love you simply have the strongest urge to share it with others. Praise God