My spiritual journey so far, I must say that the increasing demands of the secular life had pulled me away from God. Not only has my heart become noisier but my bridge towards God has become longer and longer as the days past. Here comes to prove to the real challenge is praying when you don’t feel like it. I don’t have one iota of valid reasons to be sad and yet I feel this way. The best part is not knowing what’s wrong. Best of all is there are others worse off and here I being a selfish bum and only caring about myself. Argh!!! feb 09

What hurts the most
The only other thing that breaks your heart on a bad day is when your friends aren’t happy. When you can’t do anything but be there for them and sometimes it ain’t enough for you. I’d rather suffer the greatest depression than to see my friends get hurt in any way. If that what suffering for God is like? If we can love our friends with such great capacity, compared to Christ’s love for us it is ever so insignificant. Today’s experience made me think about how much my prayers were needed for my friends and my problems were so insignificant. Their well-being matters more. Though I know that we should always work on outselves before others. feb 03